Friday, November 26, 2010

TV Is My Shepherd

This is a take off of Psalm 23. It can also apply to net surfing.


The TV set is my shepherd.
My spiritual growth shall want.
It maketh me to sit down and do nothing for his name’s sake.
Because it requireth all of my spare time.
It keepeth me from doing my duty as a Christian,
because it presenteth so many good shows that I must see.

It restoreth my knowledge of the things
of the world and keepeth me from the study of God’s Word.
It leadeth me in the paths of failing to attend the evening worship services
and doing nothing in the kingdom of God.
It anoints my head With materialism. My coveting runneth over.

Yea, though I live to be 100
I shall keep on viewing television as long as it will work,
for it is my closest companion.
Its sound and its picture,
they comfort me.

It presenteth entertainment before me
and keepeth me from doing important things with my family.
It fills my head with ideas which differ from those set forth in the word of God.

Surely, no good thing will come of my life,
because my television offereth me no good time to do the will of God;
thus I will dwell crownless in the house of the Lord forever.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I had an abortion....

in my dream this morning. The father did not want the baby, so I went in for the procedure. When it was all over & I was walking out, they handed me a warm white bag with the contents of my 'product of conception.' It felt like they handed me a ton of bricks. The scales were taken off my eyes & I was like Eve who could now see I was standing in the raw nakedness of my grave sin...I had murdered my child. Grief & shame began to overwhelm me & I wanted to crawl into darkness & hide from the world. For some reason, my other older children knew I was pregnant & they were excited about the baby. How was I going to explain to them I had killed their sibling? All I wanted to do was shut out the world under the covers of my bed & hide there forever in grief, guilt, & shame. I awoke with that heavy, stabbing feeling in your heart of death. I thank God it was just a dream. Before I was converted, an abortion was totally my plan if I ever had an unplanned pregnancy. It was by the mercy of God only He didn't let me go through with this Pandora's box of pain.


Although I've never had an abortion in real life, a couple of dear people I know have. One dealt with her pain through confession & counciling. In the old testament, David, whom the Bible says was a man after God's own heart, hid his grievous sins of adultery & murder for a time. This is what He said about that time of wallowing in His sin.
How blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven,Whose sin is covered!2How blessed is the man to whom the LORD does not impute iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no deceit! 3>When I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away Through my groaning all day long.4For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me; My vitality was drained away as with the fever heat of summer. Selah. 5 I acknowledged my sin to You, and my iniquity I did not hide; I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD"; and You forgave the guilt of my sin. Selah. 6Therefore, let everyone who is godly pray to You in a time when You may be found; Surely in a flood of great waters they will not reach him. 7You are my hiding place; You preserve me from trouble; You surround me with songs of deliverance. Selah. 8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go;I will counsel you with My eye upon you.9Do not be as the horse or as the mule which have no understanding,Whose trappings include bit and bridle to hold them in check,Otherwise they will not come near to you.10Many are the sorrows of the wicked,But he who trusts in the LORD, lovingkindness shall surround him. 11Be glad in the LORD and rejoice, you righteous ones; And shout for joy, all you who are upright in heart. Psalm 32
Such a recognition of the the innocence of a clean conscience in the first two verses. One can only feel this when one has known the dirtiness of sin in contrast to the clean slate. Then he goes into what it feels like to have a heavy conscience, what we all feel like before coming to the Lord or being chastised for wrong-doing as His child. His words to us are such a guide book for avoiding things that will hurt us & they can make us 'wise unto salvation.' He is a loving Father are what verses 6-8 are about. He watches over His own & saves them from trouble. If you are stubborn to go your own way then verse 10 is what you will reap. Verse 11 is the awesomeness His children have.
Sadly, the other person I know who had an abortion just swept it under the rug & pretended for decades it never happened. Oh, how it festers & grows in the dark of unconfession, like a spreading mildew or fungus. In Leviticus, houses were burned to the ground that had persistent mildew. It damages your health. Sin damages your soul. Prov.3:7 Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and shun evil. 8 This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones. I believe a lot of sickness today is due to just plain sin weighing heavy upon a person. To know the blessed forgiveness & cleaness of spirit & conscience. David talked about in this Psalm, as well as His most famous one for his sin, Psalm 51, is known only by those who are His.

In light of my dream as a warning , I do feel it necessary for pro-lifers to go to the slaughter houses/abortion clinics to warn women. One day this past summer, a group of us went to one. It was like the gates of hell, they had razor wire at the top of them! Looked more like a concentration camp!

People who are in a crisis life or death situation might be open for you to point them to Christ, only you have about 30 seconds to a minute to talk to girls & their moms or boyfriends as they walk from the parking lot into one of the biggest mistakes of their life. What horrific negative reverberations! What is the most effective is this minuscule amount of time to say? Tell them to seek God when they realize what a grievous sin they've done when all their bodily hormones react the next day in screaming at them for the horrendous sin they've committed against God, which didn't get them to stop, or talk about the health hazards, the wicked plot Margaret Sanger had to wipe out the black race by strategically placing the clinics in black neighborhoods, which some paused at?
It can seem overwhelming when the girls & women have their faces set like a flint to get rid of their 'problem.' It is so vivid a picture of the parable of the sower & the seeds. A handful of girls that day walked back out choosing not to kill, but that alone doesn't solve their heart problem that got them there. What kind of life would the baby have without Christ in her mother's life? Will she turn to Christ? Life IS hopeless without Him and very intimidating to handle on your own & on the behalf of a new soul you'd be bringing in. If she chooses not to have an abortion, does that make her pat herself on the back for being so 'good' she doesn't see a need for Christ?
I asked one of the butcher's helpers if she thought she was helping women. How can you justify working at a place like that? This one dear lady who was with us outside, Donna, had told it was their rationale to think they helped these poor girls fix their 'problem.' All she would answer, over & over, was "I feel sorry for you." I just couldn't grasp where in the world she was coming from & I truly wanted to understand. Did she feel sorry for me because I was obviously 8 months pregnant, that she didn't get to help me kill my problem of being 'oppressed' by a child? (Obama's mindset)
God says, "women will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith, love and holiness with propriety."1 Timothy 2:15 If women are saved in childbearing, they are surely destroyed by this child killing. Physically, as well as emotionally.